AHMAD-ZUHD 1997:
from Yā Rabīʿ Alā Tanām —
[Machine] "When he reached [an age of] maturity, and she saw what he was going through of weeping and staying awake, she called him and said, 'O my son, perhaps you have killed someone.' He said, 'Yes, O my mother, I have indeed killed a person.' She said, 'So who is this person, O my son, until we bear [the responsibility] to his family so that they may forgive you?' And by Allah, if they knew what you are going through of staying awake and weeping, then surely they would have shown you mercy.' He said, 'O my mother, it is my own self.'"
الزهد لأحمد ١٩٩٧:
عن يا ربيع الا تنام —
فَلَمَّا بَلَغَ وَرَأَتْ مَا يَلْقَى مِنَ الْبُكَاءِ وَالسَهَرِ نَادَتْهُ فَقَالَتْ يَا بُنَيَّ لَعَلَّكَ قَتَلْتَ قَالَ نَعَمْ يَا وَالِدَةُ قَدْ قَتَلْتُ قَتِيلًا فَقَالَتْ وَمَنْ هَذَا الْقَتِيلُ يَا بُنَيَّ حَتَّى نَتَحَمَّلَ إِلَى أَهْلِهِ فَيُغْتَفَرَ لَكَ وَاللَّهِ لَوْ يَعْلَمُونَ مَا تَلْقَى مِنَ السَّهَرِ وَالْبُكَاءِ بَعْدُ لَقَدْ رَحِمُوكَ فَقَالَ «يَا وَالِدَةُ هِيَ نَفْسِي»
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