[Machine] Abdullah, verily a believer sees his sins as if they were a mountain about to fall upon him, fearing it would crush him. And indeed, a transgressor sees his sins as tiny flies that landed on his nose, and he says: "Is this how it is?" So he waved them off. The Messenger of Allah ﷺ said, "Indeed, Allah is more pleased with the repentance of one of you who goes out to a barren land and says: 'O Allah, I am returning to my place of deception in it, so let me die there.' He said, "Abu Mu'awiyah said, 'Abdullah narrated two narrations, one from himself and the other from the Messenger of Allah ﷺ . It is about a person who takes his means of destruction with him on his camel, such as his provision, food, drink, and whatever he may need. But it misleads him, so he goes out in search of it until death overtakes him. Then he says, 'Let me return to the place where I went astray in it and die there.' So, he returns, and his eyes grow sleepy, but he wakes up to find his means of destruction beside him, along with his provision, food, drink, and whatever he may need."
عَبْدُ اللهِ إِنَّ الْمُؤْمِنَ يَرَى ذُنُوبَهُ كَأَنَّهُ فِي أَصْلِ جَبَلٍ يَخَافُ أَنْ يَقَعَ عَلَيْهِ وَإِنَّ الْفَاجِرَ يَرَى ذُنُوبَهُ كَذُبَابٍ وَقَعَ عَلَى أَنْفِهِ فَقَالَ بِهِ هَكَذَا فَطَارَ قَالَ وَقَالَ رَسُولُ اللهِ ﷺ لَلَّهُ أَفْرَحُ بِتَوْبَةِ أَحَدِكُمْ مِنْ رَجُلٍ خَرَجَ بِأَرْضٍ دَوِّيَّةٍ ثُمَّ قَالَ أَبُو مُعَاوِيَةَ قَالَا حَدَّثَنَا عَبْدُ اللهِ حَدِيثَيْنِ أَحَدَهُمَا عَنْ نَفْسِهِ وَالْآخَرَ عَنْ رَسُولِ اللهِ ﷺ مَهْلَكَةٍ مَعَهُ رَاحِلَتُهُ عَلَيْهَا زَادُهُ وَطَعَامُهُ وَشَرَابُهُ وَمَا يُصْلِحُهُ فَأَضَلَّهَا فَخَرَجَ فِي طَلَبِهَا حَتَّى إِذَا أَدْرَكَهُ الْمَوْتُ قَالَ أَرْجِعُ إِلَى مَكَانِي الَّذِي أَضْلَلْتُهَا فِيهِ فَأَمُوتُ فِيهِ قَالَ فَرَجَعَ فَغَلَبَتْهُ عَيْنُهُ فَاسْتَيْقَظَ فَإِذَا رَاحِلَتُهُ عِنْدَ رَأْسِهِ عَلَيْهَا زَادُهُ وَطَعَامُهُ وَشَرَابُهُ وَمَا يُصْلِحُهُ