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ahmad-zuhd:506ʿAbdullāh > Bī > Muḥammad b. Jaʿfar > ʿAwf > Khālid b. Thābit al-Rabaʿī > Balaghanī

[Machine] There was a young man among the Children of Israel who had read and acquired knowledge of the Book. He was respected among them and sought honor and wealth through his knowledge and recitation. He had innovated a practice that allowed him to attain honor and wealth in this world. He continued this way until he reached a certain age. One night, while he was lying on his bed, he contemplated his actions and said, "These people do not know what I have innovated. Doesn't Allah know what I have innovated? And the time of death is near. What if I were to repent?" So, he exerted himself in seeking repentance until he decided to act upon it. He pierced his throat and tied a chain around it, then threw it into a well in one of the corners of the mosque, saying, "I will not leave this place until Allah sends down upon me either repentance or my death." He did not consider it strange to receive revelation among the Children of Israel. Allah revealed to a prophet among them concerning his matter, saying, "If you had committed a sin between Me and you, I would have forgiven you as far as what you have reached. But how have you misguided My servants and caused them to die and enter Hell? So, I will not accept your repentance." The young man's name was 'Awf, and it was thought that he was called "Barbari".  

الزهد لأحمد:٥٠٦حَدَّثَنَا عَبْدُ اللَّهِ حَدَّثَنَا أبِي حَدَّثَنَا مُحَمَّدُ بْنُ جَعْفَرٍ أَخْبَرَنَا عَوْفٌ عَنْ خَالِدِ بْنِ ثَابِتٍ الرَّبَعِيِّ أَنَّهُ قَالَ بَلَغَنِي

أَنَّهُ كَانَ فِي بَنِي إِسْرَائِيلَ رَجُلٌ شَابٌّ قَدْ قَرَأَ الْكِتَابَ وَعَلِمَهُ عِلْمًا وَكَانَ مَغْمُوزًا فِيهِمْ وَأَنَّهُ طَلَبَ بِعِلْمِهِ وَقِرَاءَتِهِ الشَّرَفَ وَالْمَالَ وَأَنَّهُ ابْتَدَعَ بِدَعًا أَدْرَكَ الشَّرَفَ وَالْمَالَ فِي الدُّنْيَا وَلَبِثَ كَذَلِكَ حَتَّى بَلَغَ سِنًّا وَأَنَّهُ بَيْنَمَا هُوَ نَائِمٌ لَيْلَةً عَلَى فِرَاشِهِ إِذْ تَفَكَّرَ فِي نَفْسِهِ فَقَالَ هَبْ هَؤُلَاءِ النَّاسَ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ مَا ابْتَدَعْتُ أَلَيْسَ اللَّهُ ﷻ قَدْ عَلِمَ مَا ابْتَدَعْتُ وَقَدِ اقْتَرَبَ الْأَجَلُ فَلَوْ أَنِّي تُبْتُ؟ قَالَ فَبَلَغَ فِي اجْتِهَادِهِ فِي التَّوْبَةِ أَنْ عَمَدَ فَخَرَقَ تَرْقُوَتَهُ وَجَعَلَ فِيهَا سِلْسِلَةً ثُمَّ أَوْثَقَهَا إِلَى آسِيَةٍ مِنْ أَوْاسِي الْمَسْجِدِ وَقَالَ لَا أَبْرَحُ مَكَانِي هَذَا حَتَّى يُنْزِلَ اللَّهُ فِيَّ تَوْبَةً أَوْ أَمُوتَ مَوْتَ الدُّنْيَا قَالَ وَكَانَ لَا يُسْتَنْكَرُ الْوَحْيُ فِي بَنِي إِسْرَائِيلَ فَأَوْحَى اللَّهُ ﷻ فِي شَأْنِهِ إِلَى نَبِيٍّ مِنْ أَنْبِيَائِهِمْ إِنَّكَ لَوْ كُنْتَ أَصَبْتَ ذَنْبًا بَيْنِي وَبَيْنَكَ لَتُبْتُ عَلَيْكَ بَالِغًا مَا بَلَغَ وَلَكِنْ كَيْفَ مَنْ أَضْلَلْتَ مِنْ عِبَادِي فَمَاتُوا فَأَدْخَلْتَهُمْ جَهَنَّمَ؟ فَلَا أَتُوبُ عَلَيْكَ قَالَ عَوْفٌ حَسِبْتُهُ أَنَّهُ يُقَالُ اسْمُهُ بَرْبَرِيًّا