I heard Sahl b. Hunaif say at Siffin: Blame (the hollowness) of your views about your religion. I thought to myself on the day of Abu Jandal that if I could turn down the order of the Messenger of Allah ﷺ, I would. The situation was so difficult that if we mended it at one place, it was rent at another.
أَنْ أَرُدَّ أَمْرَ رَسُولِ اللَّهِ ﷺ مَا فَتَحْنَا مِنْهُ فِي خُصْمٍ إِلاَّ انْفَجَرَ عَلَيْنَا مِنْهُ خُصْمٌ